Monday, March 24, 2008

SPRING BREAK! woohoo -_-

Whoop-dee-fucking-doo. All I do at home is sit on my ass. What else is there to do in suburbia, where you can't walk anywhere fun, and you have to use your car to get everywhere? There was an article in the newspaper about how people in the suburbs are the fattest because their lifestyles don't involve any exercise. In a city or a small town, you can walk places, and on a farm, you have to do manual labor. But in the suburbs, you can't go anywhere just walking.

So here I am in white suburbia, sitting on my ass. At least I can watch stuff. I can watch TV. I can watch what happens outside--but that gets pretty boring, because there are never any people outside. I can watch the dogs play with each other. I can watch youtube videos. But that's about it. There's not much else for me to do, since Hallie's in Utah and Tyler's at his dad's house. Maybe I could go visit?

Today's Monday. I'm supposed to go working with my dad later on. Tomorrow, it's going to rain, but maybe I can get together with Erika? Wednesday I hope to go road tripping, and Thursday, I'm going to complete a scholarship. Friday, I'm off to UIUC, and that weekend we might go camping? It's kinda cold for that though. I don't know if the plans will actually follow through. I don't really care to go- I'll leave it up to them.

Nothing exciting at school. As usual. I realize that I'm responsible for my own excitement, but shit, I'm stuck for the next two months. I'm not leaving IMSA--I've come too far. I'm not leaving home-- I'll be in college soon, though. I can look forward to that.

What can I do that's exciting...hmm...Travel. I can travel. I can see the rest of the world as opposed to watching the nothing go by in suburbia. I can meet different people, see different scenery-- yeah, that'd be nice. Change would be nice. The only problem is that I need money to do that. Lots of money. Money that I can only get by working. And in order to make that much money, I'd need to work my way up the ladder. At the same place. Doing the same thing for a long time.

Shit.

In order to experience change, I have to experience a lack of change. Maybe that has something to do with how so many people hate their jobs? In order to earn large sums of money, one has to do the same damn thing for long periods of time.

Oh well. I leave you with this: just know that you are the only one responsible for your own destiny. So take responsibility, if you can. I can't wait until I can, too.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

ugh, Ad Chem labs....what a pain in the ass.

I thought of something that should be on my bottom 10. That's right. Paul's Bottom Ten Things of All Time. Here it is:

Happy Tree Friends.

Who the fuck came up with a cartoon whose sole purpose is to take cute animals and mutilate them. It's like those nasty Japanese gorey hentai pictures that attack your computer, except without the sex. Is that supposed to be FUNNY? Am I supposed to LIKE THIS?

That pwns anything on Strong Bad's bottom 10.

My life has little unique experiences. No experiential values there.
No one listens to me. No attitudinal values to gain.
I guess creative values are all I have.
So I should create something. It's the only way I can generate meaning for my existence.
I came up with an idea for a piece for full symphonic band. I hope I can finish it soon...