What a load of nothing it's been. Last week was a mind-numbing and ass-numbing experience. The warmest it got was 18 degrees, and that was last night. I couldn't do anything outside. I didn't want to even walk to school. And to boot, it was a hell-week (one without an I-day), so I was delirious from lack of sleep. I need energy. Real bad. And I get it from exercising. Maybe I should use the fitness center more often.

I don't even want to talk about the #1 thing which has been on my mind for the past month. Hint: It has everything to do with #1 in the previous post.

But one thing I would like to point out is last Friday. That's when Jimmy, Steven, Ashwin and I got together with a bunch of people who graduated last year: Joey, Michelle, Fred Howard, Jake Zhao, and Kevin Tao. We met up in the mongolian bbq in Naperville, which was OWNAGE...then we chilled at Steven's house and played mafia. Then, we went to Luigi's in Aurora to play laser tag. OOOOWWWNAGE! And I'm the one that organized most of it!...and doing so was a bitch, taking up 2 hours of my life the night before. Those guys are awesome. It's a shame we all have to end up so separated like this. And next year, it's going to be a completely new location and situation for me as well. My quad and I are so connected, we have such a copious amount of inside jokes it's like we speak our own fucking language. And in seven to eight months, we'll be separated by thousands of miles. I don't know what I'm going to do without these guys.

It makes me wonder. When we get out of here, we will not only be missing our friends, but we will be missing the opportunities we had to develop relationships with them. And not only that, but we'll be missing the opportunities we had to develop relationships with the people we had never gotten around to meeting. This is a great motivation for me to get out there and socialize.

But at the same time, there's only one semester of school left, and after that, we'll probably never see most of these people ever again. How can you develop a strong relationship in such a short amount of time? There's a reason against starting something new, too. My recent encounter with a cruddy relationship leaves me bitter, to add.

So now, I'm in a sort of social ambivalence. I think that I'll try to build up the relationships that I've really wanted to try and work on, but I don't know if meeting new people will be worth it at this point. But I won't shut myself off to it. It's weird. I want to go to college, but I fear graduation. That's the end. I enjoy the company of the other people here, and I don't know what I'll do without the friends I've made here.

Oh, I wish I could stop time.

Anyways, this week was intersession. I had one in the afternoon about marine biology (we watched clips of Finding Nemo) and one in the evening about...well, it was taught by Kiely. That's what matters. He talked about art, and philosophy, and history, and the Renaissance...you know, Kiely stuff. He's so enthusiastic and informed about it too. He's amazing as a teacher. AND HE CUSSES! Hooray! It makes him look like a real person, breaking facades. I thoroughly appreciate that. I went to the Shedd Aquarium yesterday, and looked at decorator crabs, piranhas, river otters, sea otters, beluga whales, leafy sea dragons, clown fish, blue tangs (like Dory), leopard sharks, pipefish, sea horses, manta rays, a sea turtle, parrotfishes, and so much more.

Current mood: Still bitter.

2 ideas

1. A flower is a good symbol of a relationship between you and someone. A relationship is just like a flower in that you have to SPEND TIME TAKING CARE OF IT.

2. America is going to fall behind because commonpeople aren't thinking as much. Now it's the corporation's that do all the thinking for you. Before, people had to be inventive in finding ways to have fun, like kicking an old piece of rope. Now, the corporations make products FOR you, each with its own unique purpose.